want you to watch this video clips and listen to this song while im sharingto my thoughts..
Hmm lot of things happen in a minute! Everything is so real! The irony! Its like a post paid card need to reload and new accounts need to change settings! Its fast as a car on a race. I cant think exactly what I want to say, I don’t know where to start. There are lot of things in my head that are buffering yet its uneasy to determine which is which! Ive been very busy this past 2 years! I even forgot how to toss a beer with tropa and even build trust with others. I even forgot how to believe that there are really true friends out there. I come to the point I barely ignore others because i almost believe that there are those people who will come upon you not because its there will but because there is something that they really want them to have from you. I was being so much narcissistic and selfish indeed! Is it the way I think or the way people understand the way I am, or the way I drive my self because of reason the way to do it purposely!
Its very tragic being in love though, I pretty much enjoyed all the things when I am on that phase, it seems everything is perfect. the morning I wake up and before I open my eyes I see to it I already grabbed my cell phone to read messages from my partner, I don’t know exactly why my day aren’t complete if I don’t receive any morning message, its part of my routine. I believe that simple responses from annoying and common question have an impact to feel how important you are, the essence of respect and interest is there. its not being a part of forcing your partner to do so (SINASAKAL) it’s a mutual obligation. Typical messages “goodmorning” “kumain kana ba” “anu na ginagawa mo?” what “time ka natulog kagabi?” “anu plan mo today?” these might be common for others but for me its certainly important and it gives me a sweet smile everyday.(ganun ako kababaw) you know why? Even if that is simplest message of all time as long as it came from my love one it’s a big thing for me, comparing a long messages and hundred of messages from others without my interest from them I doubt I ’ll appreciate reading it casually. I am a text addict and message dependent, I love reading messages form my partner, I always wanted to be the most updated person regarding with my partner, “nagluch kana ba?” “asan ka naba?” “anu oras ka umuwi?” “sinu pala mga kasama mo?” “enjoy mo day mo with them ok!” “be sure kumain ka na if not me kutos ka sakin” “txt me if your on your way home.” “Inform me kung nakarating kana and don’t forget your vitamins ok!” “don’t forget to say your prayers before sleep and be sure you take you dinner before bed” these messages are commonly repeated everyday, but never in my life ive been exhausted sending this and never I missed even single day to ask these annoying question! In that way if my partner really loves me (hindi sya magsasawa sagutin ang mga simpleng bagay) this is me, that’s the way I care, that’s the way I love.
I always invite my partner in my pad, I cooked, I do everything just to please my partner, I always suggest things to do, we usually talk all the things that happened the past few days that we miss to tell. My partner love chocolates, spaggetti, cokefloat, streetfoods , honey bar, itlog na may sardians, cornedbeef, sisig na luto ko, sinigang na baboy, pritong talong chichiria etc.
Hmmm was about thinking of things while I was on my way home coming from work, I realized one thing then, there are really thing that we cannot hold back just to stay with us, there are those thing no matter how we try to let them stay in our life they aren’t meant to stay. you cant keep thing in life no matter how much you wanted too, it’ll always gone on time they have too.
I have this relationship of mine which is very complicated. Think of a most complicated as possible as it is , its more than how you think it is, but still never did I come up to the point I gave up. Its merely a thought that the reason behind of these complication once in for all still the reason of my happiness. i make believe myself that I am fool and jerk person, if it’s the only way then to stay involve in love what they called then I must pretend I am, I guess its still the reason behind all these things happening to me at this very moment. Had I been blinded with my feelings or it’s the only way how get closer. It might be unacceptable for others, its my own perception that differs to everyone else. But the common thing is, I ENDED LONGING FOR LOVE AND CANT UNFOLD OF THOSE THINGS I WANTED TO HOLD BACK AND MAKE STAY EVEN IF THE NAGGING TRUTH CANT BE.
I tried moving on on different ways Ive known. Ive done research, gathered informations and ask opinions with my peers, the thing is not all these are necessarily or effective, yeah, these might work to them but on the reality it doesn’t work on me given the fact still im having unstable state of mind doin these things! On reality I come to realization that these are all product of imaginative and its being state of mind from the start.
Its very tragic being in love though, I pretty much enjoyed all the things when I am on that phase, it seems everything is perfect. the morning I wake up and before I open my eyes I see to it I already grabbed my cell phone to read messages from my partner, I don’t know exactly why my day aren’t complete if I don’t receive any morning message, its part of my routine. I believe that simple responses from annoying and common question have an impact to feel how important you are, the essence of respect and interest is there. its not being a part of forcing your partner to do so (SINASAKAL) it’s a mutual obligation. Typical messages “goodmorning” “kumain kana ba” “anu na ginagawa mo?” what “time ka natulog kagabi?” “anu plan mo today?” these might be common for others but for me its certainly important and it gives me a sweet smile everyday.(ganun ako kababaw) you know why? Even if that is simplest message of all time as long as it came from my love one it’s a big thing for me, comparing a long messages and hundred of messages from others without my interest from them I doubt I ’ll appreciate reading it casually. I am a text addict and message dependent, I love reading messages form my partner, I always wanted to be the most updated person regarding with my partner, “nagluch kana ba?” “asan ka naba?” “anu oras ka umuwi?” “sinu pala mga kasama mo?” “enjoy mo day mo with them ok!” “be sure kumain ka na if not me kutos ka sakin” “txt me if your on your way home.” “Inform me kung nakarating kana and don’t forget your vitamins ok!” “don’t forget to say your prayers before sleep and be sure you take you dinner before bed” these messages are commonly repeated everyday, but never in my life ive been exhausted sending this and never I missed even single day to ask these annoying question! In that way if my partner really loves me (hindi sya magsasawa sagutin ang mga simpleng bagay) this is me, that’s the way I care, that’s the way I love.
I always invite my partner in my pad, I cooked, I do everything just to please my partner, I always suggest things to do, we usually talk all the things that happened the past few days that we miss to tell. My partner love chocolates, spaggetti, cokefloat, streetfoods , honey bar, itlog na may sardians, cornedbeef, sisig na luto ko, sinigang na baboy, pritong talong chichiria etc.
Hmmm was about thinking of things while I was on my way home coming from work, I realized one thing then, there are really thing that we cannot hold back just to stay with us, there are those thing no matter how we try to let them stay in our life they aren’t meant to stay. you cant keep thing in life no matter how much you wanted too, it’ll always gone on time they have too.
I have this relationship of mine which is very complicated. Think of a most complicated as possible as it is , its more than how you think it is, but still never did I come up to the point I gave up. Its merely a thought that the reason behind of these complication once in for all still the reason of my happiness. i make believe myself that I am fool and jerk person, if it’s the only way then to stay involve in love what they called then I must pretend I am, I guess its still the reason behind all these things happening to me at this very moment. Had I been blinded with my feelings or it’s the only way how get closer. It might be unacceptable for others, its my own perception that differs to everyone else. But the common thing is, I ENDED LONGING FOR LOVE AND CANT UNFOLD OF THOSE THINGS I WANTED TO HOLD BACK AND MAKE STAY EVEN IF THE NAGGING TRUTH CANT BE.
I tried moving on on different ways Ive known. Ive done research, gathered informations and ask opinions with my peers, the thing is not all these are necessarily or effective, yeah, these might work to them but on the reality it doesn’t work on me given the fact still im having unstable state of mind doin these things! On reality I come to realization that these are all product of imaginative and its being state of mind from the start.
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